My aunt, in our WA group chat (consisting on all my aunts, mum & cousins & siblings) reminded me how to perform terawih and its niat. Alhamdulillah I completed the first day of terawih successfully InsyaAllah.
In my doa, I asked for many things. One of the things that is always in my prayers are of course for my children. Dr Marsitah (my gynae when I was pregnant with my daughter) told me a doa and somehow that doa is something I read everyday and it goes "Ya Allah, make my children solehin & solehah, outstanding in their performance, dunya & akhirat" it's a very simple doa. She told me to read it when we first met and somehow, that doa stayed in my head. (She told me many others but I can't remember - bless her).
While I was performing my terawih, my son was already asleep. It was already about 10pm. My daughter wanted to wait for my husband to come back from masjid so she hung out with my maid in the back room. I didn't know what they were up to when I was praying. It was quiet so I figured, she could be asleep on the sofa or something. I prayed in peace and with full kusyuk. It was bliss.
After I prayed, I went looking for my daughter. As I stood outside the back room door, I could hear her reciting Alfatihah out loud. It was very loud and almost shouting. I didn't open the door and recorded the sounds from outside the door. It was loud and clear, she was reciting Alfatihah. I didn't know what was going on inside there. I opened the door and saw her sitting on the sofabed, holding a muqaddam and pretending as if she is reading the Al-Quran. It was the cutest thing in the world. I was so proud and it was such a blessing to witness it. My maid was ironing and just standing there watching her. I saw my daughter, she looked at me and continued "reading" and I said "oh ok, that's good!" and walked out. I didn't want to distract her. I closed the door and she continued "reading" alfatihah a couple more times.
I am so blessed.
I know there are so many things I'm not happy about, about life. You know, little things here and there but I have SO SO SO much to be thankful for.
I hope this Ramadhan will be a good one for me. I hope to be better. One step at a time insyaAllah.
Have a blessed Ramadhan to all...