Tuesday, April 8, 2014


I got my labels today and I'm a happy bunny. So many things to do still but I'm happy with the progress and on target!

Wish me luck!

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Monday, April 7, 2014


My daughter started attending play classes when she was about 6 months old. Back then, it was Gymboree and she enjoyed it as much as we new parents did. My husband would skip work or come back early to attend the classes with her. He was there 9 out of 10 classes and insisted to be inside the class with her pretty much all the time. When he couldn't, had to work or something will be my time with my daughter in the class. I guess I didn't mind just sitting there and watch because Gymboree classes for toddlers is nothing but relaxing, it is actually a total workout.

We used to send her to all sorts of classes to see which one she would be interested in and we did try to send her to school at quite a young age. At that time, she wasn't really ready to be away from mummy and we decided perhaps, theres no harm in waiting a bit longer.

Then we moved and had a baby and now, she's almost 4 years old. She's very smart for a 4 year old. She gets things pretty fast considering she's not in any school and considering she has not attended any classes in quite some time. I don't teach much at home because I've been slacking. My son is a very active toddler and I find it to be really stressful trying to get my daughter to sit and do some work without my son disturbing and wanting to join it.

I've given up all together.

I just let them play!! Play all day. Ipad? Go ahead. All day ipad? Hmmm...yeah why not!

I cant cope. I cant manage them both at the same time. It is really difficult. I don't know how people do it.

I try to get them to do activities together but it is difficult to monitor them both at the same time. Which got me thinking about school...how do the teachers handle more than 2 students at 1 time. I mean, some schools have about 1 teachers to up to 10 kids. How do they manage?

Im looking forward to move. Yes, we are moving to another house soon. It feels like all we do is move. I'm so angry but it is not my call. I was so upset when we first moved in here simply because I was comfortable with the old house, and now, I'm upset that we are leaving this house because I've only just gotten comfortable with this house. I don't know when we will find our permanent home.
I know for a fact that the next house is not the permanent one. I give us max 2 years before we will move again.

On a lighter note, and another way to look at it is...I feel like Giuliana & Bill Rancic. They move a lot too. So in my head, I'm Giuliana and in my head, my husband is like Bill Rancic - although far off...but at least in my head, the picture is beautiful!

I hope by not putting them in school yet is not in any way holding them back from being great. My daughter is super smart, I may be bias but I know she is. She reminds me of myself when I was a kid and I know her potential if given to her the right way.

My son, is probably not as quick and fast as my daughter when it comes to a lot of things but he's picking up things quite fast too lately. Its just that hes not as vocal as her. But he knows things already and I can have quite a conversation with him already at 20 months. He knows what I want and he knows what I'm saying to him. I cant wait for my daughter to be in school and learn more things that mummy cant teach from home. I also cant wait to spend alone time with my son. My daughter is pretty possessive when it comes to mummy so its difficult to share mummy with her brother.

So many things on my mind.... I hope I'm  doing the right thing...

Still...Im excited about Kupu-Kupu...... Fly my butterfly....

Sunday, April 6, 2014


Early this year, I did a list of things that I want to achieve and projects I want to work on.

But God really had something else for me.

I am very proud to announce that my clothing line will be coming out soon! Yeay!!! I'm focusing on the kids line right now under my own label Kupu-kupu.

Raya collection is in progress and hopefully you will love it as much as I do.

Stay tuned!!!

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This is me. I'm always rushing to get ready and my daughter is always there to watch my every move.

Wednesday, March 26, 2014

Snowing in Genting

My daughter's current favourite cartoon on her iPad is Peppa Pig. I must say, it is pretty cute cartoon except that why does it have to be a pig? Ah well, not like she's touching it or anything.

She would watch this almost every time she's on her iPad. And it is always the same few episode. She watches the same episode over and over again that she can pretty much memorize word for word.

This morning, she was watching the episode about snow. She looked out the window and goes...

Daughter: mummy! Look! There's no snow outside our window..
Me: ya, no snow because we don't get any snow in Malaysia. They get snow in London, Switzerland, America ... (Trying to list all the countries)
Daughter: hmmmm... Genting.....(continue from my list)
Me: no lah, there's no snow in Genting!
Daughter: got lah!!! That day we went I saw snow!!!

Hmm.... Ok.. That's true.. It did snow in Genting. LOL. She is quite right!

Bless you my child!

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Tuesday, March 25, 2014

Holiday without baggage

When hubs went for his trip, I jokingly told him that when he comes back from his trip, I will need to go for a holiday on my own.
He said ok.

Excuse me? Did I say he said ok????

Do you know what my husband is like? Worlds most protective/possessive person! He said ok for me to go away on my own? Get real!!!

This is the guy, same guy who would give me cold shoulders when I set outside my office for fresh air when I was working. I literally had to hide from him whenever I step outside of my office. You might ask how come he knows when you are in or out of the office right? Well, somehow, he just know! Each time I step out, somehow or rather my phone wod ring and it will be him asking me where I am! When I tell him I'm outside, he will ask with who and obviously it will be with some colleague and soon it will turn into a fight. Why do you think resigning was so easy? Less problem, less fights! I used to really think and believed that he paid someone to spy on me because it was really that bad. I didn't do anything wrong so I wasn't scared of confrontations but it became annoying more than anything else.

My colleagues used to tell me that if I marry this guy (my husband) I will live in a "cave".. A nice "cave" but still a "cave". That was word for word and I will always remember that.

So what has changed?
Over the years of being together he became less possessive? He is starting to trust me more? I have no clue but it looks like he's giving me the green light to go.

I don't want to get too excited.

I'll keep praying that I'll get my weekend off finally.......

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Monday, March 24, 2014

Goodbye MH370

Slept early last night as I was so upset with Mr Hubs. I could see him being jetlagged and unable to sleep but I totally ignored him. (Berdosa, I know)

I saw and could hear him watching the news.

In the middle of the night, must have been about 2am, he woke me up to tell me the latest with regards to the MH370. I couldn't believe it. My heart sank and had tears in my eyes.

I don't know anyone on that flight but it feels so close to home this time. MAS has always been my preferred airline. I never had any problems with MAS and I love everything about it. I don't think this tragedy will change my perception of the airline. Beijing is one place I want to go and I guess it feels like it could have been me on that flight. My brother has taken MH370 to Beijing a few times before too. It just feels like it could happen to any one of us here.

It's just so so sad!

It ended in the south of Indian Ocean. Ended. Such a vague word to describe such a big tragedy.

I don't know what else to say. I pray for closure for the family members. I can only offer my prayers and my condolences. A lot of questions need answers and I don't think we will get them.

Goodbye MH370. May Allah guide us to the right direction and give us the answers we are looking for.

"To Allah we belong and to Him we shall return"
Al fatihah

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