On the 25 February 2020, we left for our first family Umrah and it was a life changing journey for me. I didnt have plans to keep the hijab on when I come back. I only bought a few hijab for my trip and that was it. At that time, I didnt know what style suited me or which fabric is good for me. I just bought simple plain ones for my trip. That was it. Honestly speaking, I thought life would just go back to how it was. Changing my image was the last thing on my mind. I just didnt think about it. Or maybe I was in denial.
While I was there, my aim was to do the best I could and make full use of the experience. It was beautiful. I dont know how to explain it but I really felt at ease when I was there. Even doing the tawaf alone (without my family) was therapeutic for my soul. Walking in the mosque, finding a spot to pray, going to get the zam zam, everything about the whole journey was amazing. Our room had the best view both in Makkah and Madinah. Everything was easy. Unlike some of the stories people tell me.
Being there for 10 days made me realise that donning the hijab was not difficult at all. All this while I kept thinking about how troublesome life would be but while I was there, it was easy. It was as if I've been wearing it all my life.
I always believed that when the time is right, Allah will ease the journey. Indeed He did. Alhamdulillah, a year later I am still a work in progress and I still have it on. Somehow, the journey is just so easy for me. It was a natural progression and I dont even miss going free hair like before.
It took me a while to find a style that suits me. Like I said, I am still a "work in progress"
I found a few styles that worked for me and looks good on me. I still have to work on it but InsyaAllah it is going in the right direction.
Friends and family have been really supportive. Their constant prayers InsyaAllah will keep me on the right path. This year on the 25 February 2021, I am celebrating my first hijrah anniversary. Yay me!!!
